2019 – We had a very quiet evening, but at one point, I had to stop and reflect, I am entering my 60th year. Born in 1959, I consider myself so blessed for all that I have seen and all that I have survived.
We have been going through a lot as a family since Dad’s near fatal accident on October 21st of this year, I have watched my Dad fight to get better and fight for his life. Dad is an 83 year old man who has slowed down a bit, but doesn’t think or act like a man in his 80’s. I watch him in his hospital bed and listen to him when he is clear headed enough to have a conversation and know that he doesn’t feel 80, his memories and thoughts of the past are real and vivid and are fleeting. Being a man of faith, like my father, I know that there is a greater life waiting for me, but I am not content with what I have seen here, who I have met or what I have done. I am, however, so excited to see what the next 30 years of my life will bring.
So in reflection on New Year Day 2019, entering my 60th year and not ready to give up, I have a few thoughts on what I have seen and what has happened in the last 60 years.
Being born and raised in San Francisco, the Giants have always been my home team, Willie Mac was our 1st baseman and Willie Mays was our Center Fielder and Candlestick is where they played. I saw the Giants move to a beautiful downtown stadium, then win and win again and one more time for good measure. I never went to Seal Stadium and the Seals were a folk lore as distant as World War II. JFK was shot and Killed when I was 3, Reagan was my Governor and President, Hippies were all coming to San Francisco, Student Riots at SF State. The Niners Sucked, then were the best and then sucked again, then moved to Santa Clara. I was Downtown during the ’89 earthquake and through the 6th steps of separation was a connected and effected by the Dan White killing of Mayor Moscone and Harvey Milk. I survived Disco and saw a man land on the Moon. I watched the Space Shuttle fly in space and land back on earth. The fall of Russia, the fall of San Francisco and then California, the Miracle on Ice, the Amazing Mets, the Warriors at the Cow Palace, Rick Berry and Steph Curry. Personal Computers, the internet, cell phones, pagers, fax machines and cable TV.
I have been through many New Year Days and many resolutions, when I was a young man I would think to the year 2000 and wonder what the world would be like, that is 19 years in the rear view mirror, so much has changed, but, so much has stayed the same. The trials that we all face are still suffered as individuals and still seek and search for love and companionship. Faith and love are still our baseline. The world has changed so much in my lifetime, how exciting to see where we are going.
I came across this poem and really liked what it said. I sent it out as my New Years note and would like to share it here:
“I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.
Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world.You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re Doing Something.
So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.
Whatever it is you’re scared of doing, Do it.
Make your mistakes, next year and forever.”